I am a great believer that “Experience is the teacher of all things” - Julius Caesar
We have all had a life filled with experiences that form the beings we are today. I would like to share with you my journey, in an attempt to explain why I have ended up where I am, with the passion to teach what I do.
I was born in Scotland, the youngest of four. My mother left home when I was 3 years old so I never really knew her and never saw her again. My father raised me with his new wife, who was there in person but certainly not as a woman, a role model, or a mother figure to learn from.
When I was 8 years old we relocated to Australia, without my oldest sister. I was too young to understand why. At school I was bullied, teased and beaten up because I had an accent. The embarrassment and humiliation was so great that I decided that not speaking was the best course of action. At about the same time, I was sexually abused by the old man we lived with on arrival in Australia. He told me he would throw my family out on the street if I told anyone. I learnt never to speak out but to hold in my pain. It was safer that way.
It wasn’t long before I watched my other two siblings get kicked out of home. My family unit was broken up yet again. I continued to survive at home, very quietly, not wanting to be noticed, in case the same thing should happen to me! I worked out very early on that if I was quiet and “good” then I was safe.
No one had shared with me anything about being a woman, about menstruation, about my own sexuality let alone sex!
When I got my first period, I thought I was dying! I had no older sisters that were present or a mother to explain or support me, so what little I learnt was from the girls at school.
It became something I dreaded every month. I was always ashamed and hid it as best I could. I didn’t dare ask for anything so I would use my pocket money to buy my menstrual pads.
At the age of 15, my father decided it was time for me to leave school. Women, apparently, only get married and have children. I did what I was told and left school. I learnt very early on that if I always did what I was told, I’d survive. I certainly became a survivor!
I moved out of home just before my sixteenth birthday. It was the first time I had challenged my father and he did not speak to me for 18 months. I tried to “do the right thing” and visit weekly, desperately seeking his approval again, but never a word was uttered. Somehow I knew that leaving school was not going to get me far so I took it upon myself to finish my schooling at night while I worked during the day.
I loved learning. It was the one place I felt safe and was in control of my life. My passion for learning and knowledge continued to expand and has never stopped.
My second oldest sister had re entered my life at this stage. I finally had someone who actually cared for me. She nourished and fed my soul. She is my best friend.
At 18 years old I moved to Queensland to pursue an opportunity and lived there for 10 years before a Sydney-based company poached me. I relocated once again and worked within the corporate arena for 18 years. I had finally made it! I was successful ……… until life turned me on my head again.
Somewhere in those 18 years I had fallen in love and was in relationship. Just when you think you have a plan, absolutely everything changes!
On the 15th of July 1993, after going into labor at 27 weeks, and having been in labor for 24 hours, the totally unexpected happened. I heard the doctor say “I am losing you both and we need to act fast”.
Before I knew it my precious daughter, Emily Kimberley Campbell-Love, was born via T-cesarean section. But the emergency had not ended. The doctor informed us she had had a fit after birth and after two long days we were told she had bleeding in both sides of the brain. We had to ask ourselves the unthinkable: Did we want quality or quantity of life for our beautiful daughter? Did we have enough faith to leave it to God? We had to make the hardest decision any parent has to make; we made the decision to take her off life support. She died in my arms that day; 11.30am on the 17th of July 1993.
THAT was my life defining moment.
The shock, the devastation, the loss; this was all too much for me and at that point I disconnected from the world …….. and from myself. I stopped talking and went into hibernation.
Where was I to go? What was I to do now? I did not even know that I needed help as I was so cut off. In desperation, my partner called a crisis center and was informed they had a 6-week waiting list. I heard the words “she could be dead in 6 weeks!” I met with the priest who had blessed Emily and talked; those were my first spoken words in months.
It was this profound experience that changed my life forever. My beautiful daughter had left footprints in my heart and soul.
Where to from here?
In reconnecting with the world I suffered panic attacks, long bouts of loneliness and depression and had difficulty with day-to-day living. It was at this point I delved into myself at depths never explored before to create a world where I could connect with others and feel and trust in life again. My survival skills came to the fore! I participated in life skills workshops, started to meditate and attempted to get some sort of normal behavior and “humanity” back in my life.
Three years later, just as I was feeling human again, I was involved in a car accident that brought with it enormous pain on a physical level. After 3 months of rehab with no improvement whatsoever, I was introduced to Rebirthing Breathwork Mastery. It was at that point I embarked on a deeper journey and exploration of the body and a new career! I knew I had turned a corner.
Several years later I lost my second child at 16 weeks. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined losing both my children! I was devastated but I was better equipped to manage it.
I love the expression “birds sing after the storm”. The death of Emily was a powerful catalyst; an emotional experience deepened by the further physical trauma of the car accident, and then the loss of my second child. But there is always a gift. Through all of this I discovered the connection between emotional learning and physical wellness. I recognised the powerful link between the emotional being and the physical body and the dependence of one upon the other for good health.
Now you know why I do what I do, and why I am so passionate about it. I decided that with all the challenges I had faced, and all the work I had put into my own healing, I needed to make a difference in this world. I knew I wanted to share my experiences and healing journey so I could help others overcome just some of the issues I had experienced.
It’s not what happens in life, it is what we decide to do with it that matters!!
What have I decided to focus on in my practice, based on my experience and learning?
I now dedicate my research and practice to women’s needs through all stages of life, choosing to specialise in supporting women to understand themselves physically, emotionally and mentally. I desire that each and every one of you be proud of who you are as a woman, and that you accept and love yourself and your body unconditionally. I would like to support each of you to connect to your femininity, to understand and work with your body and draw strength and power from your cycle.
I also teach you tools and positive self-awareness strategies to support your continued shift through non-supportive thought patterns and behaviors, allowing you to put into action new ways of responding to the challenges you are having in your life.
My Mission is to support and hold a space for each and every beautiful woman to accept and embody who she truly is as a powerful, feminine woman in the world, and to provide her with the best-informed choices for optimum health and wellbeing.
My Vision is to support women to become consciously aware of their unlimited potential for greatness and to bring greater awareness to how our unresolved trauma, stress, grief, loss and emotion can manifest in our physical body, creating illness and therefore affecting our overall health and wellbeing.
My Goal is to Inspire, Educate, and Empower Women to understand themselves by drawing strength and power from their cycle, accepting and embracing their female body and their femininity to create total wellness within.
“Tell me and I forget, Teach me and I remember, Involve me and I learn”